Surrender

Recently there are just too many things happening in my life, so much stress is involved. Now i am having my reservist and despite that i am in camp doing my High Key ICT, i still have to monitor all the projects on my hands. In normal days are quite stressful already, now i am added with ICT and lack of time to handle things in the day. Not just that i got hit with uncertainties, and got myself into the desert.
The desert is dry and i am really thirsty, once i had a land of oasis, rejoicing in her name, and then now i am in the desert again, walking alone again, wanting and longing for that land to feed me with water to restore and refresh me. Lord! Lord! I just pray that when will you give me a land of oasis to restore me, so that i can have a place to rest my burning leg, and dust my sand away.

As i was treading in the land of desert, strange things comes into my mind, this ICT has a live firing, and the mind and devil has been playing tricks on me to give up my will, to surrender my life, to end those sufferings of waiting in the desert, the tarnishing of my hope. My thought crushes me, my heart has no strength to retaliate. i am lost, my heart and mind. Maybe that is what those people in the desert has mention, the "illusion of the desert". I am waiting for the day and the moment of that live firing to come. . .















I concluded i should walk this path. Surrender. I will surrender all these to God to Jesus.
Me: Lord , why my hope has been banished. Why is it taken away from me?

His Word:God shows me on the 15th March 2009 daily bread, in Romans 8:18-27 that there is hope, and i have to continue to be patient. I have to continue to walk in the desert and there is hope.

ME:But i kept seeing that things are going anywhere Lord! i just can't see it. I can't see it.

His Word:in the 16th March 2009 daily bread. John 20:24-29. God ask me to have faith in it. Have great faith in it, and believe in Him.

Things that i may not be able to see it or can't see it, but just to trust in the Lord and have faith in Him, and He will lead a way for me.

A child of God is always welcomed home.!!