This is the first post for the 2007, i didn't realise that this is 2007, because i did my count down in Tanglin mall, guess what is neither in the Pub, or club, or with friends chatting around and having fun. I was at the MDF room, which consist of the whole building telephone temination. You must be wonder i was there, because i am working and helping singtel to troubleshoot the problem. 2007 is a super pack year, now is feb and my work has not decrease a single bit, instead my load has been increasing. I am happy because i know my worth in the work, i am sad because i am so pressured with work, thinking how to troubleshoot and get ahead of the schedule. Sigh!!! what a year to be, i do not even have time for my own.
I am stress, super stress, i have not been in that position before, and i know what is stress to me now, because i can feel it in every part of my body, my body is getting cramp, my nerve is getting tighten up, the adeline seen to be kept on rushing to my brain, i fear that i could not meet the customer expectation, because i am overstretch , over tax. When i sleep there is "noise " in my head, i kept thinking what am i going to acheive tomorrow, what is the next steps i am going to take, and i get the headache the next day, due to the lack of sleep. People are leaving the company , and sometimes i ask myself why am i still in this state, am i nuts? or wanting to test my limits and learning where i am.
Although now i am in the position of leading, and develop the leadership which i love, but having this challenge and learning which i get i have to trade with my time, my body and my soul. i kind of left out a lot of people, and the things i want to do in my life, i was thinking worth it or not?
Sigh!! hope that my upcoming days can be a smooth sailing one, so that i can finished it easily and less stressful.
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